New Year's Resolution

I sat down on my bed, squeezed my pillow tight and stared at the blank wall in front of me. For a moment, I thought my past 23 years was a waste to some extent. Then, something sparked in my rusty brain and my tubelight brain stopped blinking.

I quickly grabbed a pen and a notepad and pressed the nib of the pen hard on the fresh white paper. I wrote NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION.

Then my mind went blank again..... Last Year it was memorizing verses from the Bible everyday..which I failed big time. I looked around trying to get some kind of inspiration.. There was nothing inspiring in room. With a big sigh I left my pen and pad on my bed and turned on my computer.

Staring Microsoft Windows XP.....

For an instant, I hate the blue screen, it made me more blue. But I love my computer..she's my third best friend.

Anyway, my desktop was neat and clean as always. Clicked D drive and opened Stuff folder...

There was my old Daily Planner One Note file....

It recorded the little things that I plan out each week.. That was back in 2006.

BINGO! This is what I'm gonna do.

I'm bad at taking up my New Year's resolution in macro-scales. So, I thought..Maybe I should study myself the first three days of each month and set a plan a.k.a resolution for the month.

I gave myself a big hug and went back to my pen and pad. Then I wrote...

1) Scan myself (inside out) during the first 3 to 5 days of each month.
2) Get a particular idea how to improve myself in a way that I could retrospect and say..I had lived a purposeful month.....
3) Get back to step one and step two till the end of the year.

Conclusion: New Year's Resolution=>>>> LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME

There it is..my New Year's resolution. To be practical, I am a human being, I'm imperfect and I can't do everything at one time, though I had made zillion attempts on that and I failed 85% of it.

So, don't make mega big Resolutions that would later become a burden in your life. Live life, one day at a time. And for directions get a bible and read it daily, at least a verse... As a good friend of mine told me, BIBLE is Best Instructions Before Leaving Earth.

Cheers

I AM ME

This song is dedicated to all who got out of a recent bad relationship or addiction (of anything) and to all who wants to be just yourself. Being free and realizing how beautiful we could become in this life, is so important. It's like breathing

1)
There are things in my head
That tells my heart
To be the person I want to be
But it hurts (so much)
Because my heart tells my mind
To see who i really should be

pre-chorus:
There's a part of me
That needs to be freed
I think I'm in the middle
Of a beautiful oblivion

chorus:
O I feel like I'm fading
No it feels like I'm drifting
And it feels like I'm getting...to
The person I want to be
Is this how it feels to be free?

2)
There are things in my life
That shouldn't exist
But i have them as consolation
Where is redemption?
I have to find the light
To make sure I am alright

I don't need the pain
I don't need to gain
Of being alone I am me
I am what I should be
I don't need to worry
I don't need to hurry
Of being who I really am
Coz I'm not ashamed

Ooo.... I feel like I'm fading
No it feels like I'm drifting
And it feels like I'm getting...to
The person I want to be
Is this how it feels to be free?

MY SONG FOR HER

This is for all of you guys, who love their gf's so much everyday

She's my angel, so fragile
She's my honey, so lovely
She's my air, she's my life
All so fair, all so kind
I carry her in my heart
Nothing can do us part
O no nothing can do us part
That's what it is for me
That's what it'll always be

Breathing in, breathing out
I speak of love with no doubt
I feel her on my skin
I need her deep within
Taking my chances I hold
All the moments with her as gold
This life is bliss, I cannot miss

She's my soulmate, and delicate
She's my lifeline, so divine
She's my lover, and so much more
I carry her in my heart (Deep in my heart)
Nothing can do us part
O no nothing can do us part
That's what it is for me (for me)
That's what it'll always be